Sitting here wondering what I want to say today. Here it is June. I guess a few big things in my life is its been almost 3 months that hubby has been back to assisted living so that has been an adjustment. It was his choice. The subject kept coming up and Id talk him out of it. Since his last stay there almost 2 years ago we have continued to go out to visit and go to their special events. Have made some pretty good friends there. So this time the transition has been easier for both of us. He is back on hospice and I have finally letting go of thinking I am in control of everything, so that has helped me a lot . He seems pretty content, made new friends seems to like his routine. We have established Monday to be our date day. I pick him up for lunch either locally or in Joplin or back to the house usually ending up here to sit on the porch awhile and have coffee. After an hour or 2 he says hes ready to go home. His dementia is worse but still seems to carry on pretty good conversations. He frequently does say he wishes this could just all be over with and I don't blame him At 94 he is ready. He seems excited about my trips I have planned, as I try hard to not feel guilty. I do know my years are limited in my ability to travel or drive on long trips I have found group trips are wonderful as I went to Scotland with a group almost 2 years ago. What an eye opener that was I so loved it and wish I could go back and stay a couple weeks just in Edinburgh. So much to see and learn. Back then we hired a caregiver to come daily to spend a few hours with him every day but then later it just wasn't smart to have him alone so long.
So I guess what was on my mind was to just chat about this change in my life. As for myself, I feel good and contented to be alone to sleep when I want and eat when and what I want, focusing on health. I am actually doing my first 5K next Saturday Hope I win a special award to the best in the old ladies division.
